I never in all my life did anything as hard as self-publishing a book and attempting to expand my readership. I’ve been doing it since 2008 without any real support or guidance, and it seems to get harder every year.
Not a night goes by where I don’t consider walking away from it all. I’m tired, burned out, and every time I feel as though I’m making strides life steps in and kicks me in the balls.
Here’s my dilemma…
I fucking love it. I love writing and there is no greater feeling than connecting with a reader. I wake up every day with new stories and characters in my head.
Talk about your gift and your curse.
I don’t know how long I can stay on this rollercoaster. The bad days outnumber the good ones. I know I will always write… I’m just not sure if I’ll always be read.
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I understand where you're coming from, Julia. I think that's why I'm moving as slow as I am in trying to get my next book out. I have people who keeps asking for more, but I'm not sure if it's enough people to fuel my urgency to make my books available in paperback. I'm thinking of going straight e-book, because other than editing and typesetting it will not cost a thing. Keep the faith.
ReplyDeleteThis was me yesterday. Tired and worn out from working by day and writing by night. Afraid that no one will care about what I'm writing. Afraid that I'm wasting my time. But just like you, the stories keep running around in my head. Good stories and I've decided that even if only one person reads it and likes it, it's okay. I've been thinking e-book too. I don't know but I believe if God gave you the talent, he wants you to share it. You inspire me. Don't quit.
ReplyDeleteYou guys are awesome! Thank you for taking the time to share snippets of your journeys... Ebook is a definite go... I have three stories lined up just for ebooks. However I am weary and more hard choices lay before me. I have no intentions of quitting today, because I have been inspired by the people who reached out to me.
ReplyDeleteHave a very blessed day ladies!!!